Are you change agent? Maybe you see things differently. You’ve got the courage to disrupt the status quo and break through the barriers into a new way. A new future.

But we all know that change doesn’t happen in a vacuum. Change happens in communion with your community, family, loved ones, business partners, the organization.

That’s the beauty of change.

A ripple effect.

Change yourself and you’ll change the world around you.

Some people say that we literally cannot change the world any other way than by changing ourselves first. 

This is radical activism - or what I call Inside-Out Activism. 

We get clear on what’s important to us by looking at what we wish to change in others or in the world.

We get clear on what’s not integrated within us by looking at what we judge.

We get clear on what we want to contribute to the world by following our inner nudges.

Often we think that what we do personally, our healing work, how we raise our kids and how we “be” in the world is not enough. Inside-Out Activists know that this work is, quite possibly, the most impactful work we can do.

Inside-Out Activists also may be doing outside activism, building businesses and contributing in many other ways, but they're aware that these other “inside-out” ways make them more effective in everything they do.

Using the smallest microcosm of the Universe – YOU – the one thing you have control over – to heal the planet, bring unity consciousness, repair relationships and suffer less. Each one of us can heal and be the change we wish to see. We're free thinkers – curious, seeking truth, busting fear-based belief systems, and trailblazing together – finding a new way forward.

And when we do this work, we come into deeper acceptance of ourselves, others and life itself. When we're in flow with life, aligned with our true nature and showing up as our true selves, we live into what life wants for us – to be us.

So how do we do this?

FIRST, WE NEED TO WAKE UP

…and see ourselves as the captain of our ship, the one in charge of our lives and the impact we have in the world. This requires us to shift from the belief that life is happening TO me to life happening FOR me. The world needs us to heal our traumas, regulate our nervous systems and become whole again.

SECOND, WE NEED TO SHIFT

…away from the idea that someone is going to save us (like a president, partner or parent) to becoming our own savior. We need to see how powerful we are and stop complaining that anything outside of us is the problem. We need to see that any judgment we have that something is wrong out “there’ is really just for us to explore internally.

THIRD, WE NEED TO TURN

…our inner work into outer expression. We need to alchemize all of our healing work into the power to show up in the world as our most authentic selves. The world is waiting for the exact unique YOU to show up. How do we want the world to improve? Find the tiniest ways that you can be that in the world, how can you be the change?

FOURTH, WE ARE ALL

…in this together. We can help one another see what we are not able to see within us. Also, we support one another. What we all need most is to have psychological safety so we can feel safe enough to explore our inner terrain. When we have done our healing work, we can provide that for others. That’s where the biggest ripple effect comes into play.

Are you ready to take responsibility for your projections, judgments and triggers and use them as the breadcrumbs to heal your own childhood wounding? 

Do you agree that the outside world is a projection of our (collective) inside worlds therefore you're ready to do your own shadow work and accept all of yourself in order to clean up the collective shadow? 

Are you with me that when we keep our “dark parts” in the dark, they erupt in the world stage as they are now?

And if we keep playing out those shadows through moves and countermoves, us vs. them mentality, we'll stay in a drama cycle?

Are you ready to take responsibility for your own shadows, trauma and projections so you can clean up your part which has a ripple effect in the world?

Comment below about what you're doing to be the change you wish to see in the world!

I spent a lot of my life with the persona of being “nice” and “a good listener” and “adaptable” and “tolerant” and “flexible”. With women in my life, I was a people pleaser, the helper, the hero. Underneath that, at times, I was angry, judgmental, resentful and lacking the connection I craved. But this persona kept me feeling safe.

Fortunately it was also exhausting, kept me separate and required me to abandon myself.

Why fortunately?

Because the pain of inauthenticity grew to be so uncomfortable, that I had to find the most real and true me.

Speaking from experience, it requires so much courage to be our most true selves, to risk not belonging to any group, to bravely step forward without the (false) protection of our masks and personas. And yet, it’s the most enlivening thing we can do.

It’s still a practice, I can still feel the allure of popping on a mask so I can fit in. I can still feel the fear that arises when I stand in the nakedness of the most real me in public ways. And yet, I can’t go back.

The groups and tribes and labels and boxes are all too confining and layer too many assumptions upon me that no longer fit.

We’re all verbs. We’re not nouns. We need the space to evolve, to grow and to keep becoming more and more of who we came here to be.

When the caterpillar becomes a butterfly, she must go through a painful transition in the chrysalis and struggle to get out. And when a baby is birthed, he must go through the dark and tight birth canal before being brought into the light.

Birthing the most true Self that we are is not without discomfort. But we can do hard stuff. And it’s worth it!

​To all of you on this path…I salute you! How’s it been for you? Please share in the comments below!

We know that worrying doesn't help, but that never seems to stop us. 

You know how it goes: something happens (your kids are on their iPhones too much) and you tell yourself a story (this is going to be a problem) and then you feel afraid for the future. You go into fear. You play out the possibilities and by the time you are done you have become the creator of an elaborate story about how their lives are going to be ruined because of the iPhone. We get sucked into the story that our imagination has created and we believe it to be true rather than what it is…just a story based on a single thought that might not even be true (this is going to be a problem).

“Worry is a misuse of the imagination.” ~ Dan Zadra

Worry is an adaptive survival mechanism that's based on keeping us and our loved ones alive. Our imaginations project into the future and anticipate all of the possible dangers and then our brain does what it can to avoid or remove those possibilities. It serves us well if we are in a dangerous situation. And worry can be a catalyst to solve problems for sure! But it can go awry and we can form the habit of worrying and even become addicted to worrying.

Perhaps that we worry isn’t the problem, it’s how we worry.

I think we are “incomplete worriers.” Most of us stop worrying too early and sort of get stuck. We never bring the situation into our full consciousness so we're run by unconscious and irrational fears.

We worry effectively when we allow ourselves to worry long enough to go through the fear and through the worry and into confidence. Yes, you read that right, I said we need to worry longer.

We need to let our worry to play out fully.

Let’s take an example for a parent of a boy who is entering high school this year. Mom is afraid he will be exposed to drugs and give into the peer pressure, do drugs, get addicted and become a pot-head and never leave her basement.

Most likely she'll stop there and keep playing that worry tape – forming a groove in her brain by going over the same thoughts repeatedly – and this is what forms a worry habit.

She's uncomfortable sitting in this fear so she begins to think about how she can control her outside circumstances to solve this problem. She considers that if her son has more activities after school he will have less time to party. She contemplates what rules need to be in place to prevent him from being out partying too late. She lectures him about the risks of drug use. She tries to establish family traditions and family meals because studies show kids with strong family ties, regular meals, and traditions are less likely to do drugs.

Great ideas! And this shows that worrying can be useful for problem-solving. But nothing guarantees that her son won’t do drugs. If he wants to, he will. Period. And she's still stuck in fear.

Mom's just putting a bandaid on the boo-boo in her heart. She is masking (and avoiding) the uncomfortable and painful feelings around the uncertainty of her son's future. Trying to manage her fear of her son getting involved in drugs by trying to fix and control – but it’s really just an illusion of control. Since her son is now in control of his own life, there is very little she can do to control his behaviors.

HERE ARE THE 3 STEPS TO “WORRY BETTER” SO WE CAN GO BEYOND FEAR AND INTO CONFIDENCE:

1. We calm ourselves. Realize that your limbic brain is worried you'll be abandoned, rejected, or die. Or that your child will be, which is like death for you. It’s time to soothe and be tender with ourselves. We lean into the fear instead of resisting it. It’s a good time to say to ourselves, perhaps with a hand to our heart, that it’s going to be okay. I often remind myself “I am not going to die and it’s going to be okay, we can handle anything.”
2. Next, we play out the scary story by asking a repetitive question like “and then what happens?” While we do this, we poke holes in the story we are creating – we ask:
   “What is the likelihood of things turning out that way?”
   “What other creative solutions could I find if I were really in this situation?”
   “What good is happening in this moment of the story?”
   “So, what if that happened? What would we do?”
   “Who could help us?”
   “How would we handle that situation…could we make it through it? Would we be okay?”
   “What would a friend say about this situation?”
   “What would we do if the tables were turned?”
3. Lastly, we create a positive story about this – the most likely and best-case scenario based on what we know about life. I always say that if you are going to use your imagination to make up a story, it might as well be a lovely one!

Allow me to digress from our 9th-grade kid example with a simple example to illustrate this process: 

Situation: you walk by a friend who completely ignored you when you said hello. You're worried she is mad at you - did you do something wrong? Why would she do that?

• Even if she's mad at you, start by reminding yourself that you'll be okay. Most likely she won’t abandon you, it’s going to be alright. You are safe. 
• Turn things around and get curious – what might I have done for her to be mad at me? Nothing I can think of, I haven’t even seen her in weeks. If she is mad at me, maybe we could talk about it and work it out. But maybe she isn’t even mad at me. And I am sure I’ve dissed others in the past and probably don’t even know I did it!
• The "lovely story" is that she was distracted and didn’t even hear you or see you. That might even cause you to have some compassion for her and wonder if she is okay. Maybe you would even call her to check on her.

Doesn’t that feel better than staying stuck in a story that she ignored you because you did something wrong? Even if she IS upset with you, what value is there in you worrying about it? 

NOW LET’S USE THESE STEPS AND THE EXAMPLE OF THE 9TH GRADER AND DRUGS:

First, allow yourself to fully feel the fear.
Accept that you truly are afraid that your child will get hurt or even die if he chooses a path of drugs. Honor how scary that feels and your deep desire to protect him. Tell yourself that you are okay and that he's okay in this moment. Put your hand on your heart and take a breath. Remember that this is not real, it’s just a worry, just your imagination.

By doing this, you will open up space to consider the possibility that you and your family can survive and even thrive in the face of any crisis your imagination will create and worry about. And that it’s HIGHLY unlikely that most things we worry about will come to reality (research shows that 85% of what we worry about never happens).

Next, it’s time to play out the story and poke holes in it.
We’ll play this out with the intention of seeing that you can survive even the worst thing your imagination can create in this situation – that he DOES get addicted to drugs.

First, you come together as a family and talk it out – you realize that it’s nice to talk it over with him openly and you appreciate that he is talking openly to you. In fact, you feel connected to him and haven’t felt that way in a while.

You're worried and he's worried – you notice that he has grown up a lot and really is a sweet and loving kid. You can tell that he feels relieved to be talking to you and not facing this all alone. He even hugs you and thanks you.

You consider your options together – you notice that you're actually doing okay, you are surviving this “crisis” and somehow you are coming together as a family. You notice that he hasn’t been partying with his friends and instead is hanging around the house and in a much better mood.

You start to get creative as a family and consider options like taking a family sabbatical to Costa Rica for a year or maybe a rehab facility that feels really right for him and has great outcomes – you decide to go to Costa Rica and can’t believe that you will be spending a year there. You are excited and feel curious how something so bad might be turning out to be so amazing for your family!

You work with a counselor while there and your son is doing great – in fact, better than ever. You discuss how to transition back home and you realize you have come along way – you survived!

This may seem unlikely – that it’s pretty fantastical to imagine it going this well. But the truth is, it doesn’t matter. There is an 85% chance that what you are worried about will never become reality anyway. It’s just a made-up story either way.

Finally, we create a lovely story to focus on.
Maybe it goes something like this:

“My son goes to high school and experiments a little with drugs, drinks a little more than he should, parties more than I prefer, graduates and gets into a great college, parties some more, begins to grow into the man I always hoped and knew he would be, gets a great job, and is living a pretty normal life.”

Not totally out of the question, right?

Can you see how this process brings clarity and resolution? We first honor the fear you're feeling and second, walk through a scenario that is scary but focuses on how you would handle it and that you CAN handle it. It helps us to feel our feelings and then get confident that perhaps we can allow life to happen and face circumstances as they come up rather than trying to change things to fit how we want the world to be. This is the basic premise behind mindfulness.

Trust yourself. You can handle anything. It sets us up to treat life is an adventure rather than something to be afraid of.

And then, with the lovely story, if you focus on what you want to happen instead of what you don’t want to happen, you will more likely have a positive outcome. The truth is, what we resist persists. If nothing else, you will feel better and you can still feel like you are focusing on the thing you are worried about, but perhaps with an intention for a better outcome 

“Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.” ~Benjamin Franklin

If you're going to worry anyway, why not learn to worry better?

​Are you a worrier? Do you have tips for how you have learned to manage your worry? Please comment below!